[Hudson River Series, Book 3]
by Jacqueline Simon Gunn
Author’s Book Description :
It’s been twelve years since Kat laid eyes on Baxter Adams, her first love, her best friend, the boy who broke her heart. Though Bax shied away from commitments, Kat was the one girl he wanted to know forever, someone he would do anything for. Except date. Then in a moment that ripped both of their hearts out, they ended a friendship they thought would last a lifetime.
Now, Kat believes her past with Bax is finally behind her… until he’s hired at the magazine where she works. At first, they slip easily into their close camaraderie, ignoring events of the past. But is rekindling their old friendship enough? Or is something deeper still between them?
While Bax wants nothing more than to earn back Kat’s trust, blaming himself for the way things ended between them, he has no idea that Kat still harbors guilt for breaking a promise that changed the course of his life. And she never had the courage to tell him.
In an emotional story about long-lost friendships, passionate love and the bonds that endure, will the past that ties them together also tear them apart?
This is book three in the Hudson River Series but can be read as a stand-alone.
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“What if I do?” I took my hand out of his and placed it on my hip.
“I’m telling you, you don’t. This right here, what we have, this is the best part of me. And you only deserve the best.”
I glared at him. “We are together all the time. I’m the one who’s always been there. I just don’t get it. Sometimes I wonder, why not me? And I can’t stand that question. It makes me feel insecure. And I’m not.”
“I can’t be what you deserve. It would ruin what we have.”
I backed away from him, fighting a frown. I’d been diminished by the weariness of my own wanting, my own waiting. Do you know how much work it is to hold in how you feel when the person you love is right there, all the time? “Do you have any idea what this has been like for me?”
“What do you mean?”
“You have hooked up with so many girls, even some of my friends. I’m the one you’re closest with. I know this is more than friendship, and I’m tired of pretending that I don’t want more.” I started to turn away, but I turned back and looked him in the eyes. This time I would not conceal the truth of my feelings with humor. I was terrified to lose him, but I was more afraid of never fully finding myself, of never exploring these restless passions that stirred inside of me. I would not betray myself for him.
“You don’t really want me the way you think you do.”
My eyes widened. “Don’t tell me what I want and don’t want.”
He inched closer. “You have me. This me. This is the me you want, and you have him. Don’t you get it? I don’t want something serious. I don’t want to be tied down to one woman. This is how we stay close, by not being together.”
Jacqueline Simon Gunn is a Manhattan-based clinical psychologist and writer. She has authored two non-fiction books, and co-authored two others. She has published many articles, both scholarly and mainstream, and currently works as a freelance writer. Gunn is now writing psychological fiction. Always in search of truth and fascinated by human behavior, her fiction writing, like psychology, is a way for her to explore human nature — motivation, emotions, relationships.
In addition to her clinical practice and writing, Gunn is an avid runner and reader. Gunn is currently working on multiple writing projects, including the third book in the Where You’ll Land series.